The worst has occured...
Mood:  hug me
Yep, I cried. I cried at work. I cried at Kohl's!

Good thing about that is they let me leave early, and told me to think of how I would like to change my availability since it's taking such a toll on me as is.

Thank you Joanne for noticing I was upset and thus opening the flood gate. I know that comes off sarcastic, but I don't mean it to be..

But, as I predicted, upon inquiry I broke down. It started with soft tears just falling, to the chest raking sobs I do hate to show in public. I cried for at least a little under 2 hours, most of which was behind a closed door in the managers office, with Joanne trying to make me look on the bright side of things which made me feel worse for crying over my petty reasons and be further from able to cease the tears.

3 others saw me actually cry, and a few more (including Alice) saw red-rimmed, glossy eyes and a flushed face as I made my way out. I think Joanne was sort of uncomfortable seeing me cry, as some of the others were. They see me as happy, cheerful, optomistic Lori, and there I was.. dreary, in tears, and apologising for it.

Yes, I apologised for crying. I always do when caught. I don't know why.

I'm better today though, I just feel.. trapped in everything.

~Sadie