ATTENTION YE FEW LOYAL READERS!
Mood:  suave
I've made a new web-blog. I'm just testing it right now, but if I like it, it may become more permanent.

If you want to read it, you'll have to get a hold of me. I'll not post it here, or anywhere else. I'd appreciate if none of you would share it as well.

~Sadie :)

Late night, early morning...
Mood:  chillin'
I worked all day today, joy. I hauled ASS at work today. I totally tore through the junior's department, and the only thing I needed help with was patting down the clearance and some tables. My manager did a subtle "0.o" when she saw my progress.

I saw an old co-worker, Vashali, yesterday. She just might be able to hook me up with a summer job for rake in the extra moo-lah I desperately crave. Still haven't been 'introduced' to the new manager, but I know him.. he sorta knows me, blah blah. I actually miss candace, a little. Scary I know. o.x

I totally screwed up my sleeping schedule. Staying up way to late, waking up way to late... school's gonna SUCK when it starts up again. Speaking of, I have to 'sell' back some school books. Anyone want to go with me to do so, maybe Saturday morning? Anyone? *doesn't really want to go* I also have to do a sample writing for independant english 102.

I bought mary a giiiift, but she already has a very, very good idea of what it is anyway, so I can't take too much pleasure in torturing her with the fact. >.<, evil mary.

Ok, a little bit tired now. All bad, lowly feelings gone. I am filled with innerpeace! muwaha..

<3

So, it's saturday.
Mood:  irritated
I feel my emotions swirling around and festering. Don't worry, I'm fine, I'll get over it. Just been an odd, hard week, and no one was around that I felt comfortable talking to. I've had practically the entire week off and nothing notable happened, which sucks. So now, I go into a 34 (at least, I close 4 of those days) workweek. The part that gets to me most is this job isn't enough for me. Not only do I now dread walking in those doors to have to spend the day there cleaning and helping rude customers, but as much as I'm working and as hard as it's kicking my ass, I'm still not making enough to make ends meet. Not nearly.

Ah well, come fall, hopefully I will be enrolled in the massage therapy program. To which, if needed, I'll start taking art courses to help attain the credits I need to be a full time student. I need a drastic change, or to fall asleep and not wake up for this entire spring break week. Maybe I should just ignore everyone and go on autopilot, and speak only if absolutely necessary. Sounds cruel, but I don't exactly feel generous right now. I'm to the point where I will probably brush off any attempt to find out whats wrong with me. Sorry in advance.

Well, I'm gonna stop wallowing. Songs for you.

Smile - My Girl 2 Movie

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You’ll get by...

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You’ll get by...

If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...

That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

John Mayer - Not Myself

Suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
And there are times
I lose my worried mind?

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

Suppose I said
Colors change for no good reason
And words will go
From poetry to prose

Would you want me when
I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

And I, in time, will come around
I always do for you

Suppose I said
You're my saving grace?

For Fun
Mood:  happy
Because Drackie did one, I did too. Again..

01. Who are you, what's our relationship:
02. How and where did we meet:
04. How long have you known me:
05. Tell me one good thing about myself:
06. When you first saw me what was your impression:
10. Color of eyes:
12. Have you ever had a crush on me:
13. What's one of my favorite things to do:
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. Describe me in 3 words:
17. Do you think I'm good looking:
18. How would you describe me to someone:
19. Would you ever date me:
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: What do you like most about me:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your xanga and see what I say about you?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?

Opening the Polls!
Mood:  quizzical
Ooookay, I love my blog and all, but it's really not.. "nice". heh

So, to my lovely readers I open a poll.

Should I...?
A.) Keep this one, it's cool!
B.) Open a Livejournal one!
C.) Open a Xanga!
D.) All those suck, open a [insert name here]!! (if you know of a blogger I don't know exists.)

If I do end up getting a different account, I will open this up as a general blogger, and everyone who would like to can make posts! Sorta like a Message board.. sorta.

~Sadie

The worst has occured...
Mood:  hug me
Yep, I cried. I cried at work. I cried at Kohl's!

Good thing about that is they let me leave early, and told me to think of how I would like to change my availability since it's taking such a toll on me as is.

Thank you Joanne for noticing I was upset and thus opening the flood gate. I know that comes off sarcastic, but I don't mean it to be..

But, as I predicted, upon inquiry I broke down. It started with soft tears just falling, to the chest raking sobs I do hate to show in public. I cried for at least a little under 2 hours, most of which was behind a closed door in the managers office, with Joanne trying to make me look on the bright side of things which made me feel worse for crying over my petty reasons and be further from able to cease the tears.

3 others saw me actually cry, and a few more (including Alice) saw red-rimmed, glossy eyes and a flushed face as I made my way out. I think Joanne was sort of uncomfortable seeing me cry, as some of the others were. They see me as happy, cheerful, optomistic Lori, and there I was.. dreary, in tears, and apologising for it.

Yes, I apologised for crying. I always do when caught. I don't know why.

I'm better today though, I just feel.. trapped in everything.

~Sadie

Some People...
Mood:  irritated
...need to learn how NOT to bad-mouth other people when they have no control over what happens to them. Case in point, Vicki in kids, at kohl's. The lovely, and tolerant Olivera in kids was working last night with Vicki, but kohl's just isn't kohl's without some kind of hassle occuring within the night, this night.. the cosmetics girl goes home early sick. Because cosmetics cannot be left alone for ANY reason, they pull one of the people from a smaller, easier department to cover for the sick girl. This girl was Olivera, since kids is a easy enough department to handle unlike Juniors or Misses, or even Mens which can get out of control, and almost impossible to recover from. Buuut, that left Vicki alone in kids, and she did not like that idea one bit. So, since Vicki is the way she is, what did she do? Get so pissed, she refused to do girls (until she eventually HAD to) and bad-mouthed Olivera all night to anyone who would listen to her. Things like "I never could stand her." "She's a bitch" etc etc, things along those lines. Well, of course this all gets back to Olivera who is confused and hurt that Vicki would be so cruel when she had no choice in leaving kids to cover for cosmetics. Sometimes I think Vicki should be looking into a mirror when she decides to open her mouth and degrade the people around her. I may be the Ever Sad One, but Vicki should have a title of Ever Malevolent One.

Oh, and I found out why I've been so irate lately. I -hate- being a girl. >.<

The second drama of the night, is a certain somebody *glances at the readers* went to the exact opposite extreme and avoided me for the entire night. Considering I was panicking and near tears, I welcomed the solitude with wide-open arms. I think I either would have snapped completely off my hinge, or broken down into chest raking sobs if I was asked "Are you ok?" by anyone that night. ( I hate to admit that I did go home and struggled not to cry myself to sleep because I felt so horrible about how the night went. Misses and me is not a good combination.) And I will admit I came off really harsh, and borderline cruel and I do regret my actions but my feelings on the matter haven't really changed. I just wish some restraint, tact, and respect would be used more often. Those who know me best, know that I am an insanely private person, and only offer information willingly or not at all, and I absolutely find it pointless to hold on meaningless conversations especially early in the morning when all I want to do is be alone and get through school without being pestered, or apologised to, or attempted to be picked apart. I am sorry for the harsh words I have said, but you said it yourself; you're clingy. *sighs softly*

Damn Vicki. Olivera is wonderful. She's got something called.. oh, I don't know.. Personality.

*blows air out of her mouth lazily, letting her lips make raspberry noises*

Man, I am a peice of work.

Dave Mathews Band

The world is blowing up
The world is caving in
The world has lost her way again
But you are here with me
But you are here with me
Makes it ok

I hear you still talk to me
As if you're sitting in that dusty chair
Makes the hours easier to bare
I know despite the years alone
I'll always listen to you sing your sweet song
And if it's all the same to you

I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell
Love you oh so well

And it's cold and darkness falls
It's as if you're in the next room so alive
I could swear I hear you singing to me

I love you oh so well
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell
Love you oh so well

The world is blowing up
The world is caving in
The world has lost her way again
But you are here with me
But you are here with me
Makes it ok
Oh girl you are singing to me still
Like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
I love you oh so well
Enough to fill up heaven overflow and fill hell
Love you oh so well

<3 to you, my onli. *smiles*

I'm fishing for compliments...
Mood:  crushed out
Please fill out and do, yes I know, annoying. You can either copy/paste it into a comment, email it to me, or ignore it all together. I can't force you into anything..(sadly)

~Basic Questions~
What is my full name? (first, middle, and last)
Where was I born?
When is my birthday?
How old am I? (exact age, for example: 13 and 2 months)
How many pets do I have and what are they?
How many siblings do I have and who are they?
What is my eye color?
What is my hair color?
How tall am I?
Take a guess at my weight?

~Am I~
Am I cute?
Am I sweet?
Am I crazy?
Am I lovable?
Am I funny?
Am I annoying?
Am I a psycho?
Am I a good person?

~Would You~
Ever go out with me?
If you already have,would you again?
Kiss me?
Hug me?
Spend time alone with me?
Miss me if I was gone?
Listen to my problems?
Hug me if I cried?
How well do you know me?
Who is my best friend?
Who am I crushing on/dating?
Favorite color?
Lucky number?
Worst habit?
Biggest flaw?
What is my worst subject?
Best subject?
Favorite sport?
Favorite TV Show?
Favorite song?
Favorite music group?
Favorite past time?
Who Am I, really?
What song would you give to me?
What famous person do I most resemble?

~If you could~
Give me a new name it would be?
Do one thing with me it would be?
Drop me one piece of advice it would be?

~Other Questions~
What do you love about me?
What do you hate about me?
What is best quality?
What is my worst quality?
If you could change one thing about me, what would that be?
What is your honest opinions about me?
How long have we known eachother?
How long have we been friends?
What was your first impression of me?
When you saw me, did you think I was popular or dorky?
What is the funniest thing I ever said to you?
What is the stupiedest thing I ever said to you?
When was a time I really annoyed you?
When was a time you had fun with me?
When was a time I was really down in dumps?
When was a time I was on cloud nine?
What is my best feature?
Have you ever been jealous of me, if so when?
Are you currently jealous of me in any way, is so why?
Have you ever wanted to be in my shoes for any moment, if so when?
What is something you think I take for granted?
What is something you know is important to me?
Do you think I have ever been inlove, if so with who?
Who is someone I hate?
Who do you think is my best friend?
Who do you think I will marry?
Who will be my maid of honor at my wedding?
How old do you think I will be when I get married?
Can you come to me for advise?
What is the best advise I ever gave you?
What is the best advise you could give me?
Have I always been there for you?
Do you think I always will be there for you?
If you were describing me to someone else, what would you tell them?
What song reminds you of me?
What do you think my #1 wish is?
Do you regret doing or saying anything to me in the past, if so what?
Have a secret confession to make to me?
Do you still like me after doing this?

And now, as a sort of apology for that, FUN TIDBITS!
This stuff is REALLY interesting!

1. The first couple to be shown in bed together on prime time TV were Fred and Wilma Flintstone.

2. Coca-Cola was originally green.

3. Every day more money is printed for Monopoly than the US Treasury.

4. Men can read smaller print than women can; women can hear better.

5. The State with the highest percentage of people who walk to work: Alaska

6. The percentage of Africa that is wilderness: 28%

7. The percentage of North America that is wilderness: 38%

8. The cost of raising a medium-size dog to the age of eleven: $6,400

9. The average number of people airborne over the US any given hour: 61,000

10. Intelligent people have more zinc and copper in their hair.

11. The world's youngest parents were 8 and 9 and lived in China in 1910.

12. The youngest pope was 11 years old.

13. The first novel ever written on a typewriter: Tom Sawyer.

14. Those San Francisco Cable cars are the only mobile National Monuments.

15. Each king in a deck of playing cards represents a great king from history: Spades - King David, Hearts - Charlemagne, Clubs -Alexander, the Great Diamonds - Julius Caesar

16. 111,111,111 x 111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987,654,321

17. If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle. If the horse has one front leg in the air the person died as a result of wounds received in battle. If the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural causes.

18. Only two people signed the Declaration of Independence on July 4th: John Hancock and Charles Thomson. Most of the rest signed on August 2, but the last signature wasn't added until 5 years later.

19. "I am." is the shortest complete sentence in the English language.

20. Hershey's Kisses are called that because the machine that makes them looks like it's kissing the conveyor belt.

21. No NFL team which plays its home games in a domed stadium has ever won a Super bowl.

22. The only two days of the year in which there are no professional sports games (MLB, NBA, NHL,or NFL) are the day before, and the day after the Major League All-Stars game.

Now a few Q's and A's

Q. What occurs more often in December than any other month?

A. Conception.

Q. What separates "60 Minutes," on CBS from every other TV show?

A. No theme song

Q. Half of all Americans live within 50 miles of what?

A. Their birthplace.

Q. Most boat owners name their boats. What is the name most requested?

A. Obsession

Q. If you were to spell out numbers, how far would you have to go until you would find the letter "A"?

A. One thousand

Q. What do bulletproof vests, fire escapes, windshield wipers, and laser printers all have in common?

A. All invented by women.

Q. What is the only food that doesn't spoil?

A. Honey

Q. What day are there more collect calls made than on any other day of the year?

A. Father's Day

Q. What trivia fact about Mel Blanc (voice of Bugs Bunny) is most ironic?

A. He was allergic to carrots.

Q. What is an activity performed by 40% of all people at a party?

A. Snoop in your medicine cabinet.

Did you know that...

1. In Shakespeare's time, mattresses were secured on bed frames by ropes. When you pulled on the ropes the mattress tightened, making the bed firmer to sleep on. Hence the phrase "Goodnight, sleep tight."

2. It was the accepted practice in Babylon 4,000 years ago that for a month after the wedding, the bride's father would supply his son-in-law with all the mead he could drink. Mead is a honey beer, and because their calendar was lunar based, this period was called the honey month or what we know today as the honeymoon.

3. In English pubs, ale is ordered by pints and quarts. So in old England, when customers got unruly, the bartender would yell at them to mind their own pints and quarts and settle down. It's where we get the phrase "mind your P's and Q's"

4. Many years ago in England, pub frequenters had a whistle baked into the rim or handle of their ceramic cups.When they needed a refill, they used the whistle to get some service. "Wet your whistle" is the phrase inspired by this practice.

5. In ancient England a person could not have sex unless you had consent of the King (unless you were in the Royal Family). When anyone wanted to have a baby, they got consent of the King, the King gave them a placard that they hung on their door while they were having sex. The placard had F.*.*.*. (Fornication Under Consent of the King) on it. Now you know where that came from.

6. In Scotland, a new game was invented. It was entitled Gentlemen Only, Ladies Forbidden ... and thus the word GOLFentered into the English language.

Whew, that has got to be my longest post thusfar. Don't worry, I wont make it a goal to top this. I just liked all of this stuff and wanted to share. It also let me delete the -final- emails from my accounts, from a person I have absolutely nothing to do with anymore. I've been curious free since New Years, a resolution I have finally kept.

Witches!
Mood:  bright
Subject: Witches

Young King Arthur was ambushed and imprisoned by the monarch of a neighboring kingdom. The monarch could have killed him, but was moved by Arthur's youthful happiness. So he offered him freedom, as long he could answer a very difficult question. Arthur would have a year to figure out the answer; if after a year, he still had no answer, he would be put to death.

The question was:

What do women really want? Such a question would perplex even the most knowledgeable man, and to young Arthur it seemed an impossible query. Well, since it was better than death, he accepted the monarch's proposition to have an answer by year's end.

He returned to his kingdom and began to poll everybody: the princess, the prostitutes, the priests, the wise men, and the court jester. In all, he spoke with everyone, but no one could give him a satisfactory answer.

What most people did tell him was to consult the old witch, as only she would know the answer. The price would be high, since the witch was famous throughout the kingdom for the exorbitant prices she charged.

The last day of the year arrived and Arthur had no alternative but to talk to the witch. She agreed to answer his question, but he'd have to accept her price first: The old witch wanted to marry Gawain, the most noble of the Knights of the Round Table and Arthur's closest friend!

Young Arthur was horrified: she was hunchbacked and awfully hideous, had only one tooth, smelled like sewage water, often made obscene noises..Etc.

He had never run across such a repugnant creature. He refused to force his friend to marry her and have to endure such a burden.

Gawain, upon learning of the proposal, spoke with Arthur. He told him that nothing was too big a sacrifice compared to Arthur's life and the preservation of the Round Table. Hence, their wedding was proclaimed, and the witch answered Arthur's question: "What a woman really wants is to be able to be in charge of her own life."

Everyone instantly knew that the witch had uttered a great truth and that Arthur's life would be spared. And so it went. The neighboring monarch spared Arthur's life and granted him total freedom.

What a wedding Gawain and the witch had! Arthur was torn between relief and anguish. Gawain was proper as always, gentle and courteous. The old witch put her worst manners on display, and generally made everyone very uncomfortable. The wedding night approached: Gawain, steeling himself for a horrific night, entered the bedroom. What a sight awaited!

The most beautiful woman he'd ever seen lay before him! Gawain was astounded and asked what had happened. The beauty replied that since he had been so kind to her (when she'd been a witch), half the time she would be her horrible, deformed self, and the other half, she would be her beautiful maiden self.

Which would he want her to be during the day and which during the night?

What a cruel question! Gawain began to think of his predicament: During the day a beautiful woman to show off to his friends, but at night, in the privacy of his home, an old spooky witch? Or would he prefer having by day a hideous witch, but by night a beautiful woman to enjoy many intimate moments?

What would you do?

What Gawain chose follows below, but don't read on until you've made your own choice.


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Noble Gawain replied that he would let her choose for herself. Upon hearing this, she announced that she would be beautiful all the time, because he had respected her and had let her be in charge of her own life.

What is the moral of this story?

The moral is that it doesn't matter if your woman is pretty or ugly; underneath it all, she's still a witch - and don't you forget it!

I have great love for Johnny Depp...
Mood:  not sure
...but this, for some reason, brushes against me the wrong way.

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory Trailer

From apperances alone, he makes an awful Willy Wonka. *sobs*