Mood:  silly
Went to Gurnee Mills with Ashley. The guy at sbarro gave me this massive slice of pizza, and I was like "How the hell am I supposed to eat this thing?!" Needless to say, I didn't finish it.

I'm already planning all these resolutions for New Year's. 2005 should be a very good year. Starting over is a wonderful thing.

Oh oh look! Jeremy had another quizy thingy questionaire. Fun time!

YOUR LIFE____
[x] they call me: Lori
[x] also: Sadie, Bunny, Bunneh, Ever Sad One, Balls, Sadster, Sads, Sadelicious, Lor Dawg, Lolly, sweetie, sadiebun, bunbun, curly sue.. and there are probably more that I have forgotten.
[x] sex: female
[x] my first breath of air: July 27th, 1985
[x] age: 19
[x] status: Amused
[x] occupation: Retail Associate
[x] nationality: Polish and Mexican, split down the middle.
[x] best homegirl[s]: Mary (since birth, practically)

____REWIND____
[x] most memorable memory: Lovely car ride in a purty white alero.
[x] worst?: Finding out people I once respected are not respectable.
[x] first word uttered: Parents can't remember.
[x] first bestfriend ever!?: Mary, duh.

____FAST FORWARD____
[x] college planning to go: I'm enrolled in a community college.
[x] wedding: uh, -IF- it so should occur, it'll be my style and memorable.
[x] children: maybe...
[x] looking forward to Christmas: Never really liked christmas, and I'm too poor this year for any decent gifts.
[x] NOT looking forward to: Finding out things I don't want to know, again.

____PLAY____
[x] feeling: groggy-ish, yet hyper
[x] Listening: Dream Theater
[x] Talking: nope
[x] doing: This, you silly question asker.
[x] craving: a cuddle
[x] thinking of: getting a soda
[x] hating: Those who play the victim when they caused the problem.

____LOVE?____
[x] love is: Something that is too overused, and terribly undermeant yet still manages to find a way to co-exist in this chaotic world. To truly find it, is to accept and understand all its flaws, and make your own definition to keep it sacred.
[x] first love: was a birdy
[x] current love: is one of my best friends.
[x] love or lust?: Both are good, if used with extreme caution.
[x] best love song: 311 - Love Song, & the Jack off Jill version as well
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person @ the same time?: No, unless you say there are different degrees of love. But no, you can only truly love one person, anymore than that would mean you are not loving truly with your whole heart. You cannot share a heart, it is eternally unfair to everyone involved.
[x] when love hurts, you: Cry, and release the pain with chocolate.
[x] true or false - all you need is love: Only if it proves true.
[x] have you ever been in love?: yes
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight? Hm, No. I believe it's more lust at first sight than real love.

____THE OPPOSITE SEX____
[x] turn ons: nice, friendly, funny, fun to be with, able to be comfortable around, deviously evil-cute.
[x] turn offs: immaturity, whoreish personality, liars, egotistical, clingy to annoying degrees.
[x] does your parents' opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: Not necessarily, but I am curious what they would think.
[x] what kinda hair style?: what ever looks good on that person
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: Hug me, cuddle me, and be there. Oh, and I have to like you in order for you to accomplish such.
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: School, work, mall.. and through other friends.
[x] are you the type of person to ask for numbers?: Nope, I don't need numbers.

____PICKY PICKY____
[x] dog or cat: Ooh, tough. I have both, and love both equally.
[x] short or long hair: shoulder length, layered to a degree.
[x] innie or outie: Innie
[x] sunshine or rain: Depends on my mood
[x] moon or sun: Moon
[x] basketball or football: I Don't Like Sports, hehe.
[x] righty or lefty: Righty
[x] hugs or kisses: Both together! Why settle?
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend
[x] bf/gf or best friend: uh, Both together! Heh but seriously...I have no clue.
[x] tv or radio: TV
[x] starbucks or jamba juice: Gloria Jeans
[x] mc donalds or burger king: McDonalds
[x] summer or winter: winter
[x] written letters or e-mails: uh, Emails are easier to get and do.
[x] playstation or nintendo: Uh, computer.
[x] disney or nickelodeon: Disney
[x] car or motorcycle: Car
[x] house party or club: House party
[x] sing or dance: Sing
[x] freak or slow dance: Slow dance.. maybe.
[x] yahoo messenger or aim: Aim
[x] google or ask jeeves?: Google

Awaiting the new year.
Mood:  chillin'
I cannot wait for the start of the new year. Begining anew with a new life, and better judgement.

Speaking of new things, my brother has a new girlfriend.. or something along those lines. I dunno how long its been going on, or even how close they are, but apparently they've been hanging out for over a month if I had to guess. I've seen them together, and I can tell he likes her. My mom even said he told her (my mom) that he liked this girl. Even seen his car in her driveway. He can't deny that, you could tell it was his car from a mile away. Custom Mini. I like this girl, she's very nice and very pretty. She has a great sense of humor and she's alot closer to his age. She has to at least be 21. I'm hoping this one goes well, I think she's great.

Whoo, I am a busy person lately. I work nearly everyday, and when I am not working my schedule is filled with people who want to hang out. I'm totally psyched!

Monday I got out of work at like 7ish, and bumped into a friends girlfriend Heather. We went out to dinner and a few stores, and got coffee. Chatted and just had a ton of fun, and we are definately going to hang out again. We found out we had so much in common, its actually scary. On Tuesday I went with Audra and her cousin to winterfest down at Navy Pier. After getting hit by what we believed to be a drunk driver. He was driving a nice, shiney BMW and not a scratch on it! Unfortunately, Audra's cousins car now has wings on its bumper. heh. We were more interested in seeing santa and taking our picture with him. We believe santa was a cop underneath all that red and white. He told us specifically what to do after finding out we were hit just recently. Santa-Cop, hehehe.

Yesterday I was invited to go bowling with some girls from work, but by the time Danielle called me the place would have closed by 12, and she didnt have time to get her boyfriend and meet me there. So we figured it wouldnt be worth it to try. Definately will find time to go and hang out with her though. Me and lily need to hang out again since our plans for Tuesday afternoon fell through because she had to go help her sister, or something. I still need to give her the pictures I made for her in my photography class. And tonight, unless plans change, me and Ashley are going to hang out. Probably do the usual: Mall, driving, Oh OH! Crazy nickles is re-opened!! We are so totally going there!!!

Speaking of, she just called. I'm still bumming in my pj's so I'm going to go get dressed. I'll update again later tonight. :)

Mood:  flirty
Weeee! It's going to be a good day. Song for you, cause I'm lazy.

Nazi Halo - Jack off Jill
Take a souvenir and stop your staring
Just cause I'm screaming
Don't mean I'm sharing
Can't keep my mouth shut
if you keep that dress on
You can't negotiate
Not with me this time

you go so low
your fagg*t rainbow
your Nazi Halo
won't save you this time

Bring your IQ and try to understand
Just cause I'm listening
Don't mean we're still friends
Can't fix my problem
You crossed a thin line
You can't just work it out
not with me this time

you go so low
your fagg*t rainbow
your junkie ego
won't save you this time
(x2)

You're so predictable no shadow of doubt
when you are suffering know who sold you out
fuck your opinions
fuck your lack of spine
When you are miserable
Know that I'm just fine

you go so low
your fagg*t rainbow
your junkie ego
won't save you this time
(x3)

I'm on a managers bad side...
Mood:  irritated
...or so it seems. She's been very snappy/pissy with me for the past week now. And tonight she nit-picked my zone apart. "Yelled" at me too, if you can call it yelling, which I do... cause I'm sensitive like that. But apparently I'm not the only one (even some hardliners were upset with her) who's getting her feathers ruffled. She needs a chill pill, that will hopefully make her be unbiased as well.

Today, or yesterday rather to be technical, I helped my mom and niece decorate some gingerbread things. Men, women, trees, stars, candy canes... all out of gingerbread. My niece was upset that mine looked nicer, until my parents told her that her's were the prettiest to calm her. Guess she can't handle a little competition :P.

Irritability levels have increased over the week too. I feel tired, and I either sleep too much or too little. I can never win. Hopefully, within a month things with improve as I've been told they will. One can only hope.

My hotmail account put a very special email in the junk folder and I almost deleted it. *shakes a fist at hotmail* Hopefully it will not do that again. Emails are my friends.

I'd add another song for filler, but I'll save that for a night when I have absolutely nothing to say. I'm still listening to underjoyed though, among other similar songs.

<3 to drackie, things'll improve for us both.

~Sadie

Mood:  lazy
Vannesa Carlton - Rinse

She'd do anything to sparkle in his eyes
She would suffer, she would fight and compromise
She's been wishing on the stars that shine so bright
For answers to questions that will haunt her tonight.

She must rinse, this all away
She can't hold, him his way
She must rinse, this all away
She can't love him.... this way.

How she'd be soothed
How she'd be saved, if he could see
She needs to be held in his arms to be free.
But everything happens for reasons that she will never understand.
Till she knows that the heart of a woman will never be found in the arms of a man.

She must rinse this all away
She can't hold anybody this way
She must rinse this all away
She can't love him.

And as she runs away
She fears she might be followed.
What could be worse than leaving something behind.
And as the depth of ocean slowly become shallow
It's loneliness she finds.
If only he was mine.

She'd do anything to sparkle in his eyes
She would suffer, she would fight and compromise.
She's been wishing on the stars that shine so bright
For answers to questions that will haunt her tonight.

She must rinse him.
She must rinse him.
She can't rinse him.
She can't rinse him.
She can't, she wont, she must rinse him.
She can't, she wont, she must rinse him.
She must rinse this all away.
She can't hold him this way.
She must rinse this all away.

She can't love him, this way.

~------------------------------------~

Yea, I'm a lazy butt. Two more days left of school, last day is testing. I wrote out the lyrics to this lovely song for you, which.. technically, is not a lazy thing to do. Just takes less thinking. And as an added bonus, another song!

~------------------------------------~

Underjoyed - Jack Off Jill

The doctor released me
A case of underjoyed.
No lack of nutritious
Something I can't avoid
No mental condition
Maybe I'm paranoid
Or maybe...

Maybe I'm just bored
I'm just damn bored.
I'm just damn bored.
I'm just daaaamn, bored.

An old friend convinced me
That he was underjoyed.
He never caused friction
His ego he destroyed
He made a decision
He jumped into the void
Or maybe...

Maybe he's just bored.
He's just damn bored.
He's just damn bored.
He's just daaaamn bored.

Drown your fears in alcohol
Everybody slips and falls
Choke on every dream you ever had.
Drown your fears in alcohol
Everybody slips and falls
Choke on every dream you ever had.

Keep yourself in sex degrees
No one ever comforts me
Why should they bother when I'm alone
And I'm so damn bored

I am so bored
I am so bored
I am so bored
I am so
No No No Now
Bored
I am so bored
I am so bored
I'm so damned
That keeps me underjoyed

Mood:  energetic
It's been a good day.

I found out, that my photography final was actually today. I think I did well considering I wasn't ready to take it today. I turned in all of my six matted prints in near perfection so I am hoping to have done a decent job to get a good grade! Tomorrow I have to skip my Geology class, and I hope that my teacher remembers that I have to skip it for my doctors appointment. I hope to do decently in that class as well.

Recently, I've been talking to an old friend of mine. There were issues involved, and I was mad, or something... but since I can't remember or have a valid reason for ever really being mad, that maybe there was no problem at all. Just alot of drama between our 'then' circle of friends. Drama, we can never escape it.

Anyway, She came over and we went to the mall. We went to Libby Lu and made our own showergel, perfume, and body shimmer!! Yes, we know that store is for little cutsie girls, but.. uh.. Did I mention I bought cotton candy scented perfume? I did! I love it! ^-^
We made plans to go back to the mall to the "paint your own ceramic thingymabob" store and paint our own thingymabobs. I missed hanging out with her, she's so awesome! Oh, oh oh! Libby Lu had this little jewelry box that said "My box of bling" and it was pink and black and fuzzy!

Mmm, cotton candy...

Mood:  caffeinated
Whelp, I went to work, I worked, got asked to stay later.. and I refused! Ha! Take that you... retail slave drivers! *giggles*

My geology class was cancelled today, 4th or 5th time already. I don't really mind that except for the fact that its finals week, and we could have used this class to uh, Study! Ah well. Tomorrow I get to develop my photoprints and mat them, then turn them in for the final grade. I'm excited.

Oh yea, Philosophy paper? Did it, turned it in, fearing the grade. I'm a total bullshitter, and if by chance I get higher than a C on this paper... I'll be one happy, gloating bunny.


<3 to my wonderful "other half".

Current Ringtone; 311 - Love Song

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again.
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again.

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again.
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again.

However far away, I will always love you.
However long I stay, I will always love you.
Whatever words I say, I will always love you.
I will always love you.

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again.
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like am clean again.

However far away, I will always love you.
However long I stay, I will always love you.
Whatever words I say, I will always love you.
I will always love you. <3

Mood:  a-ok
Worked again until midnight, but since the store was -so dead- the manager let us out a little before midnight. I got home like five after, and it was bliss. Went up to my room to sleep, and tossed and turned for what felt like all night. Finally I got sick of tossing and checked my watch... 5:30! That sucked cause it meant I only had a half hour to actually sleep. Well, maybe a little more so long as I was out of the house by ten to 7.

Best comment of last night. "Sadie has been just awesome tonight!" Oh, yea. I'm the coolest. >>

I only work like.. 4 hours tonight, not so bad. Maybe I'll get to sleep more!

Maybe I'll update more after work, as well.

Little Quiz of Sorts.
Mood:  not sure
Not required, but fill this out if your bored and have some free time. I filled it out for one of my friends! :D

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. What do you think of me?

5. Do you love me?

6. Do you have a crush on me?

7. Would you kiss me?

8. Physically, what stands out?

9. Emotionally, what stands out?

10. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?

11. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

12. Am I loveable?

13. How long have you known me?

14. Describe me in one word.

15. What was your first impression?

16. Do you still think that way about me now?

17. Do you think I'll get married?

18. What makes me happy?

19. What reminds you of me?

20. How well do you know me?

21. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?

22. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?

23. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?

Mood:  hug me
Just got off from working 4-close. (It's 1:30am now, left the store at 1:15) And tomorrow (err... today) I get to do it all over again! Same exact hours. Hopefully I'll get out earlier than 1am though since there is no big sale.

Kitty is desperately trying to get onto my lap, except I don't know if he just wants affection or if he wants my food. Eitherway, I keep putting him back down. I'm eating >.<.

I haven't really talked to anyone lately. Well, except for mary.. and I think she's just as if not more psycho than I am right now. We've both got one thing on our minds, and don't know what to do at the moment about it. I'm sure we'll figure things out eventually though.

Oh, and the 'hug me' as my mood... I'm not really sad, I would just like a hug. Simple pleasures. Hehe.

~Sadie