Mood: incredulous
So, I was working today. Walked into a huuuuuge mess, so I was emotionally let down to begin with. The overwhelming aspect of my job was in full effect. Buut, our security was watching a lady and turns out, she did in fact steal. So since I was the associate closest to her that she actually trusts not to be a total airhead, she had me go with her to help in some way. We get the lady back in I call the manager to the back office for her, and I go and look for tickets for the stolen merchandise. Alice (manager) gets to the office, sees me... gives me a look and asks me to go back to work. Of course I do as told, cause there was nothing more I could do to be of help anymore anyway. Suddenly, I get that paranoid feeling I always get when people talk about me. Sure enough, she's pages the other supervisors and is sorta watching me as she talks to them. I shrug it off and put away the a few of the many items on clearance away, and I could have sworn I heard her say my name as I got close enough to hear. (I have very good hearing, at least... when I want to hear *shifty eyes*) So, I get upset and wonder why she would talk about me, and if she's saying good things or bad things. Later on, the other supervisors were helping me zone juniors because of course, it was a disaster. One of them goes "Hey, Sadie, what happened? Why is juniors so horrible." I reply by telling her I walked into a mess to begin with, and I've been doing the best I could to catch up and keep up with the customers, and how difficult it has been. Then out of no where... "And how much of your time was spent in the security office?" as she tried to put a joking spin on it. Then the other supervisor piped in "Yea, I bet juniors would be a whole lot better if you had been working instead of being back there." I could feel my entire body tense up. It was the confirmation I needed. I was being talked about, and from what I read from those comments, it wasnt exactly good. It was, I think, something along the lines of "Sadie was hanging out the security office being nosey instead of working like she should have, and now juniors is trashed." So, in defense I explain how I was only helping Nicole with the stolen goods and the shoplifter. I trailed off and they decided to ignore me then and continue talking about how horrible of a time the supervisor is having with her divorce and finacial troubles because of it. So, I wander away, gritting my teeth, and trying hard not to cry. I lasted until they turned off the lights and I was nearly alone in a corner of the department. See, when I get angry/pissed/upset.. after a point I just cry it out. Joyce walked by and noticed, and asked if anyone said anything to me to piss me off and I shrugged her off and said I was fine. The thing that pisses me off is that Alice was the one who assumed that I was just slacking in the first place. She's been treating me alot differently lately, and there is a rumor as to why, but it is with out a doubt the stupidest reason in the world.
Annnyway, I finish and they call it a night. I head off to the shoe stockroom to make a new hold slip for my wonderful boots I -will- buy eventually. I find my box and get a pen only to realize that Jason had already made a new one good until the 9th. He must have known I would have procrastinated again, instead of actually buying them. And yes, I'm buying -another- pair of boots.
I <3 boots.
Damn the managers, damn them to the pits of hell! Not really, but that felt good to say. Seriously though, I don't do anything wrong.. and I'm a nice, polite person. They need to back the fuck off me >.<.
Whew, done venting. And now, to fill up even more space, a song for my lovely readers! :D
Since You Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson
Here's the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
You dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say
But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you been gone
How can I put it, you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
How come I'd never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
Guess you never felt that way
But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah, yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you been gone
You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again
Since you been gone (since you been gone)
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get, I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know) that I get
I get what I want
Since you been gone
Since you been gone
Since you been gone
Posted by insertnamehere
at 1:02 AM CST
Updated: Saturday, January 8, 2005 1:05 AM CST