I am a sick wittle bunny.. *sniffle*
Mood:  hug me
Saturday night, I spend time with my friend Ashley for the most part of the day, go home and head to kohls to make sure what time I work on sunday. Sunday morning, I wake up with a sore throat and slightly throbbing headache. I go to work, get about a dozen "Oh, my, Sadie you're so pale... are you ok?" And two (jokingly of course) "You can only go home if you pass out." Needless to say, as my voice came and went during the entirety of the evening from a hoarse whisper to a low, painful croak, I managed to survive the evening.

Monday morning, I wake up feeling utterly, terribly miserable. Dad has me take my temperature; 100.2. He then has me call the doctor to make an appointment since there is alot of strep throat and other viruses going around lately. He calls Kohl's and tells them that I will not be in for work that day, that I will be going to the doctor instead, so I made sure to get a nice doctors note. They take a throat culture to analyse what I might have, and to see if it would be ok to perscribe antibiotics. Anywho, by the time I get to the doctor (called at 11am, appointment at 4pm) my fever raised to 100.6. So I spent the day bumming, drinking lots of tea and having lots of soup.

Tuesday morning, not so bad, but still felt awful. More of a pounding headache, congested nose/head, and sore stomach from coughing so much awful then a "Omg, I'm really sick, put me out of my misery!" Called in sick for work again, since I still had a moderate fever, and the doctors note covered both days. Had nothing but soup and tea again. Fun times.

It's now 11pm, (tuesday) and I am heading to bed. I get to sleep and look forward to going to school tomorrow, still sick but I have no choice otherwise.

<3 to the masses! (Void for certain people.)

Yes! To those of you who pay extra close attention to what I do, this and my DevArt journal are -exactly- the same. Sue me, >.<. Anyway, one thing to gain from being sick is my doggy is sleeping with me. She's a lonely little puppy, especially since the cat now gets more of everyone's affections.

Oh, and derrick, I got a little devious and let the cat sniff my Vicks. Funniest reaction I've ever seen thusfar from him. Although it was very cruel, very. *smiles sweetly*

Mood:  quizzical

Stiches into a bleeding mind.
Created by Chymera and taken 0 times on bzoink!
Would you say you have feelings, say a crush, for someone?	Uh, yes.
Would you say someone had a crush on you?	I hope not, they could do better. >>
Do you think you could ever take human life? Why?	Hm, maybe. Depends on if I took my medication or not. *snicker*
Have you ever cut yourself?	yes
Burned yourself?	on accident
Pierced yourself?	on accident
Otherwise hurt yourself? How?	Yes, emotionally.
Do you think the Military is a needed thing? Why?	eh... no clue.
What in your opinion is the biggest problem with the US Goverment	they're stupid?
Is religion a necessary evil?	sure
Is eating meat wrong in anyway? Why?	No
Is it possible to truely live by biblical ideals? Why?	No, because we'd be stoning bad people.
Do you think a scholarship for middle-class white males is wrong in anyway?	No. Mommy and daddy don't always save up trust funds.
Would you ever ask the opposite sex out? Why?	No, no need to.
Is abortion wrong? Why?	If you're a skeezy slut, yes. If you have a legitimate reason, no.
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I'd tell you about an ex-friend of mine...
Mood:  lazy
...but it's not worth the effort.

I just wish she'd leave me alone sometimes. I know she's still silently stalking me, she has to be. She's probably more curious than I am. In fact, she's probably reading this blog of mine. She's "so sorry" and "will always care" blah blah Bullshit. If that were remotely true, she wouldn't have done -any- of the skeezy things she's done. Ok, I'm done. No more. She's not worth any of my time. She's already stolen enough for her selfishness.

New Topic.

I found the old jokes and letters that my brothers ex Roberta sent me. She always "took care" of me, and taught me all kinds of things. Sometimes things I never wanted to know about. I miss her, and deep down, I know she was the love of my brothers life thusfar. A little off her hinge, but then again.. so are all of his girlfriends. I just hope my brother watches himself, or he'll wind up with another kid. With his current "girlfriend" it wouldn't surprise me in the least bit.

So tonight was the mini-dinner party for Vitorrio. He quit Kohl's and today was his last time working, so we all went to TGIFriday's and had a blast. He's free now! As free as the wind blows, teehee. He starts work at Barnes and Nobles on sunday, and we've all agreed to go and harrass him at the mini-starbucks cafe he'll be at. Also, if Kohl's doesn't start playing their cards right, they might lose 3 more associates before summertime. Myself included >>. I mean, it's not really a bad job, and the co-workers are wonderful for the most part, it's just that the managers are too biased, bitter, and relentless. They bitch about how they don't have enough workers, then when they have the workers they don't give them hours, and are the sole reason why no one stays around for more than a few months at absolute most. Every now and then we get an odd exception. I was an exception. Anywho, after friday's we went to Melissa's house and played DDR until 2am, then decided it might be best if we all went back to our homes before our parents called the cops and filed missing person reports.

Now it's 3am, and I am not the least bit tired. I think I'm secretly waiting for Mine to message me. He's probably long asleep though. But you know what, I'll tell you a secret... *darts her eyes around suspiciously*... I love him. <3 Ok ok, it's not really much of a secret to those who know me best. But in him I have found something that is truly rare, and no one else can even claim to have even half of what we share.

Ok, going to bed now. But lastly, a song for you!

My Way - Limp Bizkit

special
you think your special
you do
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it when you laugh at me
look down on me and, walk around on me
just one more fight about your leadership
and I will straight up leave your shit
cause I've had enough of this and now I'm pissed (yeah)
this time I'm a let it all come out
this time I'm a stand up and shout
I'm a do things my way,
it's my way
my way or the highway
this time i'm a let it all come out
this time i'm a stand up and shout
i'm a do things my way,
it's my way
my way or the highway
just one more fight about a lotta things
and i will give up everything to be on my own again, free again
this time I'm a let it all come out
this time I'm a stand up and shout
I'm a do things my way,
it's my way
my way or the highway
this time I'm a let it all come out
this time I'm a stand up and shout
I'm a do things my way,
it's my way
my way or the highway
someday you'll see things my way cause you never know,
no ya never know when your gonna go
someday you'll see things my way cause you never know,
no ya never know when your gonna go
just one more fight and i'll be history
yes i will straight up leave your shit
and you'll be the one who's left missing me (yeah)
this time I'm a let it all come out
this time I'm a stand up and shout
I'm a do things my way,
it's my way
my way or the highway
this time I'm a let it all come out
this time I'm a stand up and shout
I'm a do things my way,
it's my way
my way or the highway
someday you'll see things my way
cause you never know,
when ya never know when your gonna go
someday you'll see things my way
cause you never know,
when ya never know

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Mood:  quizzical

The Favorites, Have-You-Evers.. and Last Times! Oh, the variety!
Created by -ambiguous and taken 36453 times on bzoink!
What is your favorite..
gum	Winterfresh
restaurant	Cracker Barrel
drink	Yoohoo
season	spring/fall
type of weather	Cool, beautiful days.
emotion	peace
thing to do on a half day	sleep
late-night activity	chat online
sport	uh.. none.
city	Chicago, or Sydney
store	Kohl's... JK!
When was the last time you..
cried	Friday
played a sport	Gym senior year? heh..
laughed	5 seconds ago.
hugged someone	Today, Vashali came back to visit at Kohls
kissed someone	August *sniffle*
felt depressed	recently
felt elated	Now
felt overworked	EVERYDAY! hehe
faked sick	uh.. don't remember.
lied	yesterday? forgot
What was the last..
word you said	So?
thing you ate	Steak, mushrooms, mashed potatoes, corn, bread rolls and butter, beans, and potatoes and scrambled eggs. Alot, I know :D
song you listened to	Naked - Spice Girls
thing you drank	can of Pepsi
place you went to	work :S
movie you saw	Meet the Fockers
movie you rented	Don't rent movies.
concert you attended	Warped Tour
Who was the last person you..
hugged	Vashali
cried over	stupid people
kissed	Steve, the pirate.
danced with	my invisible friend
shared a secret with	Kelly
had a sleepover with	Audra and Luke
called	Mary
went to a movie with	Audra
saw	Meet the Fockers
were angry with	Brother
couldn't take your eyes off of	Chocolate
obsessed over	Chocolate
Have you ever..
danced in the rain	nope
kissed someone	of course, haven't you?
done drugs	never
drank alcohol	Yep.
slept around	Nope, I'm a virgin. And DAMN proud of it.
partied 'til the sun came up	yep
had a movie marathon	yep
gone too far on a dare	never allowed any drastic dares
spun until you were immensely dizzy	yes
taken a survey quite like this before	when bored.
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Really Long Survey (over 200)
Created by starsbleed2nite and taken 59987 times on bzoink!
What is your name?	Lori
Are you named after anyone?	My middle name is for my Aunts Aunt.
What's your screename?	psychoticsadie
Would you name a child of yours after you?	No.
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?	Joshua
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?	I would switch names with my Alter Ego.
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?	They spell it Laurie, or sometimes call me Lisa, or Laura.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?	Sure, I'd have a spiffier one.
Basics
Your gender:	Female
Straight/Gay/Bi:	Straight
Single?	No
If not, do you want to be?	No
Birthdate:	July 27th
Your age:	19
Age you act:	19? heh..
Age you wish you were:	21
Your height:	5'2
Eye color:	gray/blue/green
Happy with it?	Yea
Hair color:	Brunette
Happy with it?	Never, hehe.
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:	Righty
Your living arrangement:	House, with parents, grandma, brother.. and a niece every other weekend.
Your family:	is ok.
Have any pets?	yep. dog, cat, fish, gerbils.
Whats your job?	Kohl's Associate
Piercings?	8 of them.
Tattoos?	not yet
Obsessions?	Whipped Cream
Addictions?	Sugar and Caffiene
Do you speak another language?	Half assed :s
Have a favorite quote?	Damned if you do, Damned if you don't.
Do you have a webpage?	Yes.
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?	For the most part.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?	Extremely! I'm a floormat for personal use. I should stop that.
Do you have any secrets?	Many
Do you hate yourself?	Sometimes
Do you like your handwriting?	Not really, I could do better.
Do you have any bad habits?	Of course, everyone does.
What is the compliment you get from most people?	You're so cute/sweet/nice/etc. And I love your hair!
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?	Sweet Cherry Pie, or some shit.
What's your biggest fear?	Spiders, and being alone.
Can you sing?	Somewhat Decently
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?	Not to be cool, to be hilarious.
Are you a loner?	For the most part.
What are your #1 priorities in life?	Be content with life.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?	Yes, I'm awesome.
Are you a daredevil?	Not really.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?	My figure :s
Are you passive or agressive?	Passive, but I can be agressive.
Do you have a journal?	yes
What is your greatest strength and weakness?	Love
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?	Weight
Do you think you are emotionally strong?	Depends on the situation.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?	Not speaking up for myself before it gets too late.
Do you think life has been good so far?	Meh, could have been better.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?	DTA, sorta.
What do you like the most about your body?	Legs.
And least?	Tummy/hips
Do you think you are good looking?	Meh, I'll settle for Cute.
Are you confident?	Not really
What is the fictional character you are most like?	Morgan, from Sweep.
Are you perceived wrongly?	Sometimes.
Do You...
Smoke?	Quitting >.<
Do drugs?	Never.
Read the newspaper?	Rarely
Pray?	No.
Go to church?	No.
Talk to strangers who IM you?	Sure, it's fun to mess around.
Sleep with stuffed animals?	Used to.
Take walks in the rain?	Only when I have to.
Talk to people even though you hate them?	Unfortunately, but I try my best not to.
Drive?	Yes
Like to drive fast?	On expressways.
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?	Yes.
Hurt yourself?	Sadly, yes.
Been out of the country?	To Australia! and Canada.
Eaten something that made other people sick?	Yep. Fun times.
Been in love?	Yes.
Done drugs?	Never
Gone skinny dipping?	No
Had a medical emergency?	yes.
Had surgery?	Minor foot surgery, if you can call it that.
Ran away from home?	No, thought about it though.
Played strip poker?	Nope.
Gotten beaten up?	No, well... No.
Beaten someone up?	I wish. Oh, do I wish.
Been picked on?	Yes, alot actually.
Been on stage?	Sorta
Slept outdoors?	Yes.
Thought about suicide?	..Sadly.
Pulled an all nighter?	Yep
If yes, what is your record?	72 hours+
Gone one day without food?	Couldn't ever do that.
Talked on the phone all night?	Yes.
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?	Yes.
Slept all day?	Oh yea, good times.
Killed someone?	Wishful thinking.
Made out with a stranger?	NO
Had sex with a stranger?	NO
Thought you're going crazy?	going? I'm already there!
Kissed the same sex?	bleragh.
Done anything sexual with the same sex?	For me to know, and you never to :P
Been betrayed?	Yes, a few times. Once recently.
Had a dream that came true?	Yep
Broken the law?	Sorta.
Met a famous person?	yep. Henry Winkler (sp)
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?	Only pets.
On purpose?	No.
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?	Yes.
Stolen anything?	When I was 5.
Been on radio/tv?	No
Been in a mosh-pit?	Yep, owie!
Had a nervous breakdown?	Not a severe one.
Bungee jumped?	No
Had a dream that kept coming back?	Yes.
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?	Sure, there has to be somehting out there.
Miracles?	Yes
Astrology?	Sometimes
Magic?	Depends on the type of Magic
God?	There's something up there.
Satan?	There's someone down there.
Santa?	No
Ghosts?	Yes
Luck?	yes
Love at first sight?	Yes
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?	Yes, to an extent.
Witches?	Wiccan ones.
Easter bunny?	YES! I am the easter bunny!!!
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?	Yes.
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?	No
Do you wish on stars?	Sometimes. Mostly when I was little.
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?	I have the Catholic view, since I was raised on it.
Do you think God has a gender?	No.
Do you believe in organized religion?	Not really.
Where do you think we go when we die?	6 feet under.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?	Yes
Who is your best friend?	Mary
Who's the one person that knows most about you?	Mary & Derrick
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?	Be yourself.
Your favourite inside joke?	Pink Thong
Thing you're picked on most about?	Height
Who's your longest known friend?	Mary
Newest?	Allison
Shyest?	Marie
Funniest?	Audra
Sweetest?	Cathy
Closest?	Mary
Weirdest?	Sean
Smartest?	Lisa
Ditziest?	Kelly
Friends you miss being close to the most?	Hm, no one in particular
Last person you talked to online?	Derrick
Who do you talk to most online?	Jim
Who are you on the phone with most?	Not on the phone.
Who do you trust most?	Mary
Who listens to your problems?	Lots of people
Who do you fight most with?	No fights.
Who's the nicest?	Marie
Who's the most outgoing?	Sean
Who's the best singer?	Mary
Who's on your shit-list?	Hahahahahaha, Some girl.
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?	NO
Who's your second family?	Mary's family
Do you always feel understood?	Not always.
Who's the loudest friend?	Mary
Do you trust others easily?	Yes, and No. Both at the wrong times.
Who's house were you last at?	Audra's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:	Derrick ^-^
Do your friends know you?	Most of them do.
Friend that lives farthest away:	Derrick, James, Jarad, Kevin.
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?	No
What do you find romantic?	Silly, small things.
Turn-on?	Sense of humor.
Turn-off?	Ego
First kiss?	Dont... make me.. puke.
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?	Bad.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going	Before
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out	Not really.
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv	No
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?	meh, I say no. They say "cute" So no. *shifty eyes*
What is best about the opposite sex?	Hugs!
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?	Testosterone! lol
What's the last present someone gave you?	Mary's gift.
Are you in love?	Yes. Madly.
Do you consider your significant other hot?	Mmm...
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?	This girl.
You wanted to kill?	Managers
That you laughed at?	Sean
That laughed at you?	everyone lol
That turned you on?	*cough*
You went shopping with?	Ashley
That broke your heart?	Myself
To disappoint you?	Someone I thought was a good friend.
To ask you out?	Blergh
To make you cry?	Managers
To brighten up your day?	Vashali
That you thought about?	Max
You saw a movie with?	Audra
You talked to on the phone?	Mary
You talked to through IM/ICQ?	Jim
You saw?	Meet the Fockers
You lost?	My money... on boots >>
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?	no.
Will it be with your significant other?	no.
Or some random person?	no.
What are you wearing right now?	clothes, duh.
Body part you're touching right now:	the keyboard, for me it's technically a bodypart
What are you worried about right now?	distance
What book are you reading?	not
What's on your mousepad?	dolphins
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:	bored, content, happy, bland, tired.
Are you bored?	yep
Are you tired?	a little
Are you talking to anyone online?	yes
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?	No
Are you lonely or content?	Content
Are you listening to music?	no
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Wheeeee!
Mood:  quizzical

Everything Anyone Ever Wanted To Know About You
Created by LaBelleAmie and taken 4991 times on bzoink!
The Basic Stuff
Name?	Lori A** "Sadie Bunny" S*********
Age?	19
Height?	5'2
Weight?	130
Birthday?	7/27/85
Birthplace?	Chicago
Current Location?	Suburbia
School/Grade?	College
Zodiac Sign?	Leo
Chinese Zodiac Sign?	Ox
Righty or Lefty?	Righty
Haircolor?	Naturally Brown; Currently reddish/blondish/brown
Eyecolor?	gray/blue/green
Skin Color?	White
About You
What's Your Family Situation (Parents, Siblings, etc)?	Two Parents, one brother, grandmother, neice.
Any Pets?	Yes
If So What Are They?	1 dog, 1 cat, 3 gerbils, and fish.
Favorite Relative?	Aunt Sophie
Least Favorite Relative?	Sandra
What's Your Heritage/Race?	Mexican and Polish
Political Affilation?	Politics Smolitics
Love & Sex
Sexuality?	Straight
Are You In A Relationship Now?	Yep
If So, With Whom?	He knows who he is.
For How Long?	I've known him for roughly 3 years.
Are You In Love?	Very Muchly So
Do You Have A Crush On Anyone?	Yes. Same dude as above.
Ever Had A Crush On Someone Of The Same Sex?	Yes
How Old Were You When You Had Your First Kiss?	17
Virgin?	Yes
If Not, How Old Were You When You Had Sex For The First Time?	N/A
Was It Enjoyable?	N/A
What's The Farthest You've Ever Gone?	To Australia *snicker*
Where Do You Most Like To Be Kissed?	Hm, Neck.
Best Love Quote?	uhh... "Real love never Dies" - The Crow
Your Friends
Best?	Mary
How Many Do You Have?	Lots
More Guys Or Girls?	Both
Love Them All?	Most of the time
Any You Wish You Were Closer To?	Yep, distance and emotionally-wise
Oldest?	Mary
Newest?	uhm, Allison
Pen Pal?	Marine Tony
Friends And Words: Associate Them
Pen	15 club
Flower	power
Pink	RULES
Window	pane
Heart	ache
Mother	evil
Bread	yummy
Insane	Derrick
Sunglasses	nyeh
Pimp	Paul
Cross	eyed
Lonely	Bored
Car	Tony
Music	punk
This Or That
Boxers or Briefs?	boxers
Thongs or G-Strings?	neither..
Shorts or Pants?	pants
Shoes or Barefeet?	depends
Books or Movies?	Movies
Night or Day?	Night
Dark or Light?	Dark
Mountains or Beach?	Beach, next to the mountains.
Snow or Sun?	Snow
Pepsi or Coke?	Coke
Guys or Girls?	Guys
Swim or Surf?	Swim
For or Against
Gay Marriage?	Sure
Abortion?	Uh, questionable
Bush Getting Re-elected?	That Jerk.
Suicide?	No blood on the carpet plz.
War?	NO
Pants?	sure
Clothes In General?	why not
Penises?	uh.. right.
Favorites
Color?	Pink
Number?	16 and 21
Holiday?	Easter
Season?	Spring, or Fall
Movie?	The Crow
Book?	Kushel's Dart
Magazine?	..Cosmo?
Food?	Chinese
Drink?	Yoohoo
TV Show?	Family Guy
Song?	Jack of Jill - Love Song
Band?	Lots
Computer Game?	Sims
Video Game?	Bloodrayne
Anime/Manga?	uh,.. not sure.
Shirt?	Happy Bunny
Pants?	Jeans
Actor?	Johnny Depp
Actress?	Sandra Bullock
Singer?	erm.
Flower?	rose
Scent?	adidas
Animal?	shark
Cookie?	chocolate chip
The Future
Want To Go To College?	I am going
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?	Grown Up
Want To Get Married?	...I shamefully admit, yes.
Want To Have Kids?	Perhaps. We'll have to see.
What Would Their Names Be?	Long and Embarassing? lol
How Many?	not many at all
Where Do You Want To Live?	A house
Where Do You Want To Get Married?	er, a unique way
How Do You Want To Die?	I don't
More Stuff About You
Piercings?	8 of them.
Tattoos?	not yet
Smoke?	Quitting
Drink?	Rarely
Do Drugs?	Never
Skinny Dip?	never
Greatest Fear?	Being alone
Chocolate or Vanilla?	Chocolate
Go To Church?	Nope
Religion?	None
Scars?	a few
CDs Owned?	erm, maybe 20
Collections?	No
Like To Be Naked?	Depends on if I feel sexy
Ever Eaten Sushi?	Crappy Sushi
An Entire Case Of Oreos?	Yes
Been On Stage?	Yes
Danced In The Rain?	Not yet
Kissed Someone Of The Same Sex?	Blergh
Weirdest Dream?	walking 500 miles in the rain
Best Dream?	Canned soup and Dessert
Saddest Dream?	No dreams.
Dream You Most Wish Would Come True?	Recent Ones.
Think You're Attractive?	Not particularly
Shoplifted?	when I was 5
Been Caught "Doing Something"?	yep
Weirdest Makeout Place?	Hotel Parking lot
Like Thunderstorms?	NO! *cwy*
Favorite Shoes?	Boots
Favorite Quote?	"Life's a bitch, and then you marry one." Marine Tony as heard from his friend.
Best Advice Given?	Be yourself, fuck everyone else.
Worst Advice Given?	Trust Me
Favorite Song Lyric?	However far away, I will always love you.
What Quote Says Most About Your Life?	Damned if you do, Damned if you don't.
Glad This Is Over?	No, more questions!
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Some people >.<
Mood:  incredulous
So, I was working today. Walked into a huuuuuge mess, so I was emotionally let down to begin with. The overwhelming aspect of my job was in full effect. Buut, our security was watching a lady and turns out, she did in fact steal. So since I was the associate closest to her that she actually trusts not to be a total airhead, she had me go with her to help in some way. We get the lady back in I call the manager to the back office for her, and I go and look for tickets for the stolen merchandise. Alice (manager) gets to the office, sees me... gives me a look and asks me to go back to work. Of course I do as told, cause there was nothing more I could do to be of help anymore anyway. Suddenly, I get that paranoid feeling I always get when people talk about me. Sure enough, she's pages the other supervisors and is sorta watching me as she talks to them. I shrug it off and put away the a few of the many items on clearance away, and I could have sworn I heard her say my name as I got close enough to hear. (I have very good hearing, at least... when I want to hear *shifty eyes*) So, I get upset and wonder why she would talk about me, and if she's saying good things or bad things. Later on, the other supervisors were helping me zone juniors because of course, it was a disaster. One of them goes "Hey, Sadie, what happened? Why is juniors so horrible." I reply by telling her I walked into a mess to begin with, and I've been doing the best I could to catch up and keep up with the customers, and how difficult it has been. Then out of no where... "And how much of your time was spent in the security office?" as she tried to put a joking spin on it. Then the other supervisor piped in "Yea, I bet juniors would be a whole lot better if you had been working instead of being back there." I could feel my entire body tense up. It was the confirmation I needed. I was being talked about, and from what I read from those comments, it wasnt exactly good. It was, I think, something along the lines of "Sadie was hanging out the security office being nosey instead of working like she should have, and now juniors is trashed." So, in defense I explain how I was only helping Nicole with the stolen goods and the shoplifter. I trailed off and they decided to ignore me then and continue talking about how horrible of a time the supervisor is having with her divorce and finacial troubles because of it. So, I wander away, gritting my teeth, and trying hard not to cry. I lasted until they turned off the lights and I was nearly alone in a corner of the department. See, when I get angry/pissed/upset.. after a point I just cry it out. Joyce walked by and noticed, and asked if anyone said anything to me to piss me off and I shrugged her off and said I was fine. The thing that pisses me off is that Alice was the one who assumed that I was just slacking in the first place. She's been treating me alot differently lately, and there is a rumor as to why, but it is with out a doubt the stupidest reason in the world.

Annnyway, I finish and they call it a night. I head off to the shoe stockroom to make a new hold slip for my wonderful boots I -will- buy eventually. I find my box and get a pen only to realize that Jason had already made a new one good until the 9th. He must have known I would have procrastinated again, instead of actually buying them. And yes, I'm buying -another- pair of boots.
I <3 boots.

Damn the managers, damn them to the pits of hell! Not really, but that felt good to say. Seriously though, I don't do anything wrong.. and I'm a nice, polite person. They need to back the fuck off me >.<.

Whew, done venting. And now, to fill up even more space, a song for my lovely readers! :D

Since You Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson

Here's the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
You dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you been gone

How can I put it, you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
How come I'd never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
Guess you never felt that way

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah, yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you been gone

You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you been gone (since you been gone)
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get, I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know) that I get
I get what I want

Since you been gone
Since you been gone
Since you been gone

It's a New Year!
Mood:  rushed
I'm just sitting here on the couch, watching the crow on cable. The cat is curled up next to me, trying to get me to pet him and suckle on my skin. My kitty wubs me ^-^

My first day back in class was this morning, or yesterday morning to be technical. Wasn't so bad, professors seem nice so far. Geology teacher still knows me, and he started lectures on the first day.. evil >.<.

I'll write more later, eventually. yeah.

The Day Before New Years Eve.
Mood:  party time!
I have no clue what to write. Lessee, my first week back at school it seems as if I will be facing a 30 hour work week. Sadly, I had the option to have that changed, or a day removed, and I was all "No, It's no problem, I can work that." I'm so nice.

Well, tomorrow is new years eve. I'm probably going to go hang out with Audra, and her boyfriend Luke and their friends. She's going to find out if its ok if I spend the night, that way I don't have to drive around late at night with all the drunkards.

Don't know what else to say, so here's a song for you.

Good Charlotte - Predictable

Something isn't right
I can feel it again feel it again
This isn't the first time
That you left me waiting
Sad excuses and false hopes high
I saw this coming still I don't know why
I let you in

I knew it all along
You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)

So take your empty words your broken promises
And all the time you stole cause I am done with this
I can give it away give it away
I'm doin everything I should've
And now I'm makin a change
I'm living the day
I'm giving back what you gave me
I don't need anything

I knew it all along
You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)

Everywhere I go
Everyone I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all want to know why I'm so broken
Why am I so cold
Why I'm so hard inside.
Why am I scared
What am I afraid of
I don't even know
This story's never had an end
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back
But I know the ending of this story
You're never coming back
Never..never..never..never.....[echo].....

I knew it all along
You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)

Everywhere I go for the rest of my life (so predictable)
Everyone I love
Everyone I care about
They're all gonna wanna know what's wrong with me (so predictable)
And I know what it is
I'm ending this right now..

My kitty can be a very bad kitty.
Mood:  bright
My kitty likes to climb around in the christmas tree, and jump onto the front window ledge almost destroying the little coca-cola village on it. My mom goes ballistic whenever she sees him nearby.

..or, he'll lay on my chest and I'll pet him, then suddenly he'll start suckling on my chin. It's so... ew. Slimey. Still not as bad as what he did to my brother. *devious grin*

Oh, last journal.. saying "I love my job." Yea, that died last night. Went through the night going "I should quit, I could find something better, I've got experience." But like always, that feeling disappears when you realize you work with such wonderful people. And the managers aren't completely bad, even if they aren't completely good either. All I can say is.. people can talk alot of smack, but can't take smack about themselves.

Got a little ego boost when people think I actually do a good job in my departments. Most of the time its "You should have been in juniors, you clean that place up alot better." comments. Which, I think is weird.

Maybe I'll update again later today, just out of things to say right now.

Mood:  happy




MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!